I really don’t know where to begin. I mean, what do you say to the one who brought you so much joy yet so much heartache?
Well, I choose to say: THANK YOU
I appreciate you keeping me when I didn’t want to be kept. Thank you for giving me the gift of time—time to reflect, time to pursue, time to grieve. You gave me TIME—and that’s a luxury I’ll never abuse again.
When I met you, I had a lot of fear…a lot of anxiety…a lot of uncertainty…and a whole lot of ambition, too. You validated my fears without letting them overtake me. You let me feel anxious so that I could appreciate the peace that would follow. You assured me it was okay not to have all the answers—but encouraged me to take the test anyway to at least show me where I currently stood.
You also showed me that, yes, some of my dreams could come true! (Shameless plug: Who would have thought that my documentary I worked so hard on would land me a handful of platforms in the upcoming year?!)
Even though I have yet to understand it all, I look back and see that your timing was absolutely perfect—everything from going back to school and getting the same professors I had in years past (Coincidence? I think not!) to applying to my current position and getting settled in my career. I know this is just the beginning!
2016: I thank GOD for you! You were a tough pill to swallow at times, but you were the medicine I needed to move forward.
It’s because of you that I learned to value the people who truly value me, and I’ve witnessed that the “blood is thicker than water” mantra doesn’t always apply. Before you came into my life, I had a bad habit of letting people choose when I was important to them. But because of you, I’ve learned to choose myself without regrets.
You tested my faith, brought out the fighter in me, and shined a light on my dark spots—which wasn’t always fun. At first I hated you for it…but now, I see you were just starting the healing process for me so that I can stand ready for all the blessings that this next year has.
You connected me with the right people at the right time, and you’ve allowed me to build new friendships and relationships in the most unlikely places. I’m forever grateful for!
I’m forever indebted to the wisdom you shared with me, and I vow to increase in it as the days go on.
Proverbs 16:16 says, “How much better it is to get wisdom than gold. Yes, to get understanding is to be chosen rather than silver.”
You managed to find sketches of my future self (how’d you do that?) and you shared them with me! If only I had the words to explain how much that means to me—to have a picture in mind to strive towards—feeling secure that my future is full of hope and promise.
2016, it’s bittersweet to say goodbye—but necessary for my growth. I vow to take every lesson you taught me into this next chapter and will remember you like yesterday